A work in progress. A painful journey. Anyone suffering with the reality of being intersexed, or who has someone in their life who suffers from a physical, genetic or hormonal gender disorder may benefit from the journal of my experiences.  To be unable to identify with either sex and yet exhibit characteristics on some level of both is no fun. Often misunderstood. We feel forced to solitude, hiding, desperate seeking, secrecy, emotional deprivation and withdrawal. A constant need to learn who we are and how we can fit into a world where no one can fully understand is our perpetual mission.  I will share observations and experiences, medical results, and research.  When and where I can I will address questions and hopefully shed some light on an unfortunate condition to which there is no cure.